Sunday, May 18, 2014

Sly (clever) Rib (woman)

I'm a poor speller, but I find words fascinating, I use plenty, plenty that I can't spell. Often I'm looking for the correct spelling because it's for a dialog going on in more than just my brain and I don't want to embarrass myself too much, I'll search the Internet. Correct spellings will come with bonus etymology, change over time or alternate usage. A happy assimilation of information accident. Most likely the spelling won't stick permanently but the gleaning will. I find the bones of the written language fascinating, and it's okay if the correct way to order them won't stay sorted out, I'll happily go back again and again.

SlyRib was simillar accident. In bed sick for something looking for brain diversion I entered in the web address of my one of my favorite newspapers. A missed keystroke and SlyRib came to be... in my brain. It took a good three years to get from idea to a written Internet published post. I don't expect anything but a place to layout my personal language and idea bone collection in interesting patterns, sometimes trying for the proper assemblage sometimes not.

Sly like clever. Rib like Eve. Sly also as in Eve, because she was clever, whether in the creation narrative or as her daughters have been throughout time. Rib as in bones, as in pared down to the essential elements. Rib as in the protection of my vital parts. Ribs wrap around my heart. Arranged in another fashion, it could mean a thousand other things. I am a SlyRib.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Mary the Little Black Lamb.

“Old beer bottles are really the best bottles for this kind of thing, they are thick and the lip is big and holds the nipple on tight. Just so you know this isn’t my beer bottle, it’s a very old old one and it came with Mary.” It had been a while since they'd had sheep and never one this young. Mary was sweet, tiny and smelly. Logann and I talked, laughed and cried about babies and milk and mothering helpless creatures. My baby having days in the rearview, but just barely, she was still in the midst.

At home Max was the occasional feeder, Logann was the regular. She was the one that Mary had bonded with and when Logann approached the gate that went into the pasture Mary would come running. When Max did the feeding he’d have to catch Mary and make it clear that feeding was the business at hand.

I can’t remember what they were up for a visit for but Mary needed someone to take care of her, do the every four hour feedings, just like a baby, and I was signed up.

Lesson: 'The Good Shepherd' I could do this. Despite the panic attack every single time, I would work though it. Fact, secretly loved the torture process. I don’t do anything unless I can somehow artificially turn it up to emergency. Being put on the spot, to stand up in front and say something and have it be helpful, insightful or meaningful? Bring it. I like to think that I'm clever and could maybe come at things from some new angle. I like to think that’s one of my features.

"Shepherds, why do sheep need them? They stand upright, their eyes are on the front of the head, depth perception, visual acuity, higher order brain function, they value the sheep." All is rolling along well… “I went down for a visit the Henrieville folks, when arranging it Logann said that Mary grazed now, but she would still come running to her but all but ignore Max. Logann was Mary’s shepherd."

"I don’t remember why I was there for a visit. I do remember going to see how Mary had grown. I don’t look exactly like Logann, but we both have long light colored hair. You can see the pasture from the door. As I came close to the gate it took a few seconds, but something in me must have triggered the same parts of the little lamb’s brain as seeing Logann. She came running. It delighted me to be taken for the lamb's favorite. I loved playing the role of shepherd to this little black lamb."

A hand is raised, a comment proffered, "When we abide His word and do His work I think we in a small way resemble Him, others can look to us for the kind care that He provides. Others recognize His image in us."

Alma 5:14- "Have ye received his image in your countenances? Have ye experienced this mighty change in your hearts?" Sometimes...

To play the shepherd is good. I love to play the shepherd. Ultimately though I need the Shepherd. Like Mary I don't comprehend it any more than the little black lamb does. She doesn't understand how it is done. The old beer bottle, the mixed up milk formula, the sturdy rubber nipple. She doesn't understand, she can't. Her belly hungers, she sees her shepherd and she comes running. Even when she no longer needs those four hour feedings, she comes running.

I'm hungry and my Shepherd appears and I don't know how it is done anymore than Mary does but I am filled. I am comforted. I am healed. I am for the moment whole.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

I'm going to post clever things here. Really I am, funny, joyous, sparky and snarky, faith filled, grateful, lonely, angry, sad, conciliatory, loving and hopeful, like a tossed salad or a mystery soup, when it's soup let's hope for tasty.